Today was day 60.
Everyday for the past 60 days I have been journaling, reading the Word, Praying about specific things and enjoying my time with God. I have said before but I will say it again – this process has revolutionized my spiritual life – I am falling in love with God like never before. It has not been easy to be so consistent – but every morning when I awake I think about and get excited about my time with God. Sometimes I have to move the time around that I meet with God but not very often – normally it is right after the kids get on the bus. I so look forward to the 45 minutes to an hour I carve out for God.
Yesterday it all almost came crashing down. My kids had a 2 hour delay for school because of dense fog and my normal morning routine got disrupted. I felt behind when the kids finally left for school and so I went right to polishing my sermon as my normal routine for Wednesday morning. I got it polished and was letting it sit for the rest of the day a is my routine. Then I went to my next thing which was hitting some visits which I try to do Wednesdays late morning/ early afternoon. I jumped in the Explorer and was heading off to town to hit the hospital and one nursing home. I was singing along with the radio and started thinking about some things and then it hit me.
You see I was thinking about some church issues and then I remembered – I forgot God. I forgot God. Words cannot adequately describe my feeling. Tears came to my eyes as I was driving and I began to call out to God in prayer. I asked God to forgive me for leaving him completely out of everything. When I say everything – I mean everything.
You see I did not pray for anything or anyone. I did not ask for His guidance on the sermon polishing that I was doing. I did not get into His Word and connect with Him although I was reading his Word in preparation to preach. I do not pray for my family, my church family, or myself. When I say I forgot God – I forgot God but all while preparing to do the work of God. I was struck by the thought – I was so busy doing the work of God that I forgot God.
I think what hurt so bad was not that I have been so consistent but that I have been loving my time with God and like I said falling in love with him in such a new ways. In my mind I pictured God waiting for me to sit down and talk with Him and I forgot all about Him.
The good news.
The good news is that once I got home from my visitation at the hospital and nursing home that I was able to walk over to where God was sitting and waiting for me and we had a great time together. I love my time with Him.
Let me ask you – how has your time with God been? Have you ever found yourself so busy working for God that you forgot God?